First Smile⚓︎

Originally written on November 6th, 2019 at 8:47am. Last update was on November 6th, 2019 at 8:48am.

Jackson,

This morning was the first time ever that you truly smiled at me.

You've been fussing pretty bad over the last few weeks, and your mom and I often find ourselves exhausted by the end of the day.

This morning started off like most mornings - bringing you out of the bedroom so your mom can get a little more sleep. I fed you, twice, changed you, also twice, and even changed your clothes. You were still upset about something. Maybe still hungry? I'm not completely sure what type of cry is what yet...

I still needed to finish eating breakfast, so I picked you up and brought you to the table to hang with me while I ate. You were looking up at me, so I tried entertaining you by tapping your nose; what your mom and I affectionately know as a "boop".

Well, after booping your nose few times, at 7:42am this morning, you gave me your first smile. I immediately fell apart and cries tears of joy. You looked curiously at me, and I booped your nose again. You gave me another small smile. More tears of joy came flowing.

Seeing that smile made all those long nights fall away. I love you, son.

Always,

Dad